I start class again tomorrow. The thought does not excite me. I mean, I sort of look forward to discussions about Con Law, but that's about it. I feel like I worked so hard through the end of finals, and even though I had five weeks off, four of those five were spent waiting for grades, all but one of which have arrived. One still remains, and it is driving me crazy! But in short, I have not relaxed as much as I wanted. I have seen friends, had a lot of fun, been with family I loved, and driven a LOT, but I had a hard time truly finding peace. And in that way, the break was good for me.
I hyped up this break a lot in my mind, several weeks of having to do absolutely nothing. I looked forward to it a lot, and was so excited when it arrived. I envisioned total peace and quiet, and getting the rest I so desperately needed. However, I found myself, even during the break, feeling stressed about the dumbest things. It wasn't until a week or so ago that I truly let down my walls I had built during the times in school where I was most stressed, walls that kept me from truly feeling the weight of my stress. I finally felt that stress, and I let it go. God finally is showing me how to let go and truly be at peace even in times of the greatest stress, and for that reason this break has been a huge success.
Thank you to all of the friends that made my break very special. It is such a joy to see and spend time with all of you. You made me who I am and continue to shape my future.
Congratulations to Tal and Dava Debauche :-)
Finally, even though I said I am not excited about tomorrow, I am still infinitely grateful for my education and Praise Him for law school!
I look to the future as I always do: with Hope and anticipation
It starts tomorrow.
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